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Monday the 13th of October, 2008

What…

What do you do when the one you love the most is the one who hurts you the most?

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Friday the 6th of July, 2007

Remembering Those We’ve Lost: Victims of Hate

This video was produced for The Tunnel of Oppression held at The University of Alabama at Birmingham in the Spring of 2007. It’s a tribute presented by the Gay/Straight Student Alliance of UAB.

Pictures of Hate & Hope are presented to the music of Sarah McLachlan’s Angel along with the closing title song from Brokeback Mountain, The Wings. An excerpt from Dennis Shepard’s statement before the court at the sentencing of Aaron McKinney is also included.

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Monday the 4th of September, 2006

Seven Days till the World Stood Still

Please make it a note to come back and visit Fiercepoet.com over the next 7 days. I’m going to be posting a tribute each day leading up to the 5th Anniversary of September 11th on which day I’ll be honoring Kenneth Tietjen as part of the 2996 Project.

I would simply just ask people to “Remember...”

Robert

Posted by fiercepoet at 03:15 AM on the 4th of September, 2006.
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Thursday the 1st of June, 2006

The Now and Present

I’ve known for a while now that the feelings were coming back; I’ve felt this deep, down hunger for something more. I’ve grown more and more empty over the last couple of months. Today, the empty feeling set in with its full force. I can’t help but feel alone again. I haven’t felt alone in a very long time. But I do now…

If you’re reading this, then you can see that I’ve written for the first time in over a year and a half. I’ve started writing more but my mind is racing to fast to put into words what I am thinking. I can’t concentrate on any one thing as my mind is wondering ablaze. I thought the therapy was truly helping over the last 6 months but now I realize that it was simply helping to suppress this longer. I can’t suppress it any longer now.

I hurt. I hurt more than anyone thinks and I can’t describe the pain in words. After a phone call today, I simply sat down and cried. Me crying isn’t abnormal in itself; I’m a very emotional person to begin with. Me simply breaking down in tears with no apparent reason however has become abnormal. The last time I remember simply crying for no reason was at least 4 or 5 years ago. I guess you really can only hide from the truth for so long before it finds you again.

My truth has finally found me…

Posted by fiercepoet at 01:05 AM on the 1st of June, 2006.
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Wednesday the 17th of May, 2006

Who wants to go for a ride?

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Thursday the 26th of January, 2006

There’s No Way via Alabama

It’s been a while since I heard this song but last night while iTunes was randomly selecting my musical enjoyments, it decided to play it. Boy did I stop and have a rush of emotion come back to me all at once. Some of you who know me will know where this comes from. It’s not from anything of recent memory however. You have to go back some 8 years to find the meaning of this song. Three poems exist in that year that I wrote and then suddenly stopped writing. I had better things on my mind; I was happy for the first time in my life. Truly happy. That happiness lasted for a year; exactly one year. From beginning to end it all happend from January 2nd, 1998 to January 2nd, 1999. That has by far been the best year of my life thus far. I know I still have a lot of living to do as most people would say but I can always reminisce of the living I’ve already done as well. The happiness I held for that brief time has been unmatched ever since. I find myself, that fault that it is, comparing all that has been since to that one. That simple one.

I’d love to say that I’ve moved on and that I’m over that one from so long ago but I can’t. I’m lying if I say I can.

I need to do this more often; write that is. It’s been a long time since I really concentrated on my happiness and my life. It’s my time now. I need to do this for me and only for me. While I have no one else around to worry about making happy or satisfying, I need to learn again to make myself happy and satisfied. I can only do so much and that so much has got to start out for myself. It can’t be for anyone else right now.

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As I lay by your side and hold you tonight,
I want you to understand,
This love that I feel is so right and so real,
And I realize how lucky I am.
And should you ever wonder if my love is true,
There’s something that I wanna make clear to you.

There’s no way I could make it without you,
There’s no way that I’d even try,
If I had to survive, without you in my life,
I know I wouldn’t last a day,
Oh baby, there’s no way.

It means so much to me, whenever I see,
That “wanting me look” in your eyes,
I don’t know how I could do without,
Holding you close every night.
I’ve waited so long just to have you to hold,
And now that I’ve got you, I’ll never let go.

There’s no way I could make it without you,
There’s no way that I’d even try,
If I had to survive, without you in my life,
I know I wouldn’t last a day,
Oh baby, there’s no way.

I never knew until you, what I was missing,
Now you say forever, and I find my heart is listening.
Yes I’m listening.

There’s no way I could make it without you,
There’s no way that I’d even try,
If I had to survive, without you in my life,
I know I wouldn’t last a day,
Oh baby, there’s no way.

Baby, there’s just no way.

Posted by fiercepoet at 05:50 PM on the 26th of January, 2006.
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Monday the 2nd of January, 2006

Another New Years goes by…

Resolutions 2006

1. To read more often (at least one novel a month and books on CD don’t count).
2. To complete a regular, weekly routine of excercise at the Rec Center (since I pay for it regardless).
3. To live life. “Forget regret or life is yours to miss.”
4. To write more often.
5. To be more social.
6. And many more I’m keeping to myself this time around.

I will be a happier person in 2006. I will be.

Posted by fiercepoet at 01:54 AM on the 2nd of January, 2006.
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Sunday the 11th of December, 2005

Introducing…

I don’t know if I have a lot of readers or a lot of random people visiting but I wanted to take a minute to post a few links that delve deep into the site. I wanted to introduce maybe just a few random people to my “art”. I’ve been writing for over 12 years now (although 2005 has been a very slow albeit non-existent year). I love comments about my works and would encourage anyone who happens to take use of these links to also take use of the comments feature on each entry. I hope you - whoever you are - thoroughly enjoys.

Poems of 1993
Poems of 1994
Poems of 1995
Poems of 1996
Poems of 1997 - Just a “Note”, no poetry for 1997
Poems of 1998
Poems of 1999
Poems of 2000
Poems of 2001
Poems of 2002
Poems of 2003
Poems of 2004

Posted by fiercepoet at 02:29 PM on the 11th of December, 2005.
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Thursday the 17th of November, 2005

We’re not gonna pay… RENT!

Well I can’t say that I know people in high places but I can say that it pays off to be nosey sometimes. I e-mailed the local radio station WQEN 103.7 The Q yesterday inquiring about whether they knew of or were sponsoring any midnight viewings of Rent. They usually sponsor a midnight viewing of the bigger openings and I figured they were the best place to start after calling four local theaters all of which stated they would not be having a midnight screening.

Well, it turns out that it definitely paid off to e-mail The Q. I got a prompt reply back from Tommy Chuck (the afternoon personality) that asked for my name, address, numbers & DOB. He said I would have 4 tickets waiting for me at the station. Now that in itself is not the bid deal. The big deal is that it’s for a Tuesday evening Private Screening before the release on Wednesday. I’m very much a happy person now. Almost giddy I might say.

I can’t wait. I’m getting so excited about seeing Rent on the big screen finally. It’s been way too long to have to wait. After seeing it on stage 5 times (which certainly isn’t enough), it’s about time for the movie. And even better than just the movie being out is the fact that this will be my first time to see several of the people who originated thier roles in the original Broadway version.

I’m counting down the minutes....

Posted by fiercepoet at 02:15 PM on the 17th of November, 2005.
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Sunday the 30th of October, 2005

I Will Remember You via Sarah McLachlan

Enough said…

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin’ in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I’m so tired but I can’t sleep
Standin’ on the edge of something much too deep
It’s funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can’t be heard

But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I’m so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose
Clinging to a past that doesn’t let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories