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Sunday the 25th of September, 2005

What exactly is a Break?

So I was informed by my partner/boyfriend/casual date/whatever name you so choose to be called last week that he needed a break.  What exactly is a break in terms of a committed relationship?  Going on seven months now and he needs a break.  Where does that leave me now?  I don’t get a say in the break or an objection; well, I guess I do get an objection but it will have no bearing on the final outcome.  He’s made up his mind and there’s nothing I can do or say to change that.

So in the mean time, I ask again, what exactly is a break?  He won’t define this break but yet turns the question around on me and ask what I think a break is.  Well now, I’m not the one requesting said break, why should I be the one to define it.

The more time that goes by, the more I feel almost as though he wants to break-up entirely but he doesn’t want to be the one to do it.  I don’t know.  The opinion of some friends is that if someone is requesting a break, they either 1) have another interest already in mind or 2) are no longer happy and afraid to actually break-up.

I’m happy or at least I think I am.  Granted, there are some things that I would like adjust to and would like Cody to adjust to as well.  It’s almost as if he expects me to change anything and everything he wants me to but yet I can’t ask him to change anything at all.  It’s his way or no way (or the highway sometimes).

I guess that is enough ranting for now.  Maybe since I have some extra time on my hands (yeah, like that exist) since the break, I’ll start writing more regularly here.  I can’t remember the last time I sat down and wrote anything artistically.

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Posted by rtkenmore at 11:51 PM on the 25th of September, 2005.
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